You Deserve Happiness and Health

Today is the start of Mental Health Awareness Week; a week to promote good mental health for all and encourage conversation about the importance of talking about your mental wellbeing. To begin the week, we have a piece written for us by SRUC Elmwood alumna and vlogger Chloe Donald who speaks openly about her anxiety.

Chloe Donald Alumna

“You deserve happiness and health”, Chloe Donald

For many years, I struggled with severe anxiety. It was so bad I couldn’t even bring myself to get out of bed. It was mentally and physically draining. This didn’t do me any favours as at this time, I had left college and needed a job. It was a huge struggle to even get a job when I felt this anxious. The thought of going for the interview then working in an environment I wasn’t comfortable with was terrifying. I was also having trouble keeping friendships with people. I kept cancelling plans, ignoring texts and not leaving my bedroom. Some of my friends just thought I was being ignorant and lazy. Which was certainly not the case. My relationship with my family got worse too. I was very irritable as I felt so down, I would seem very angry most of the time. Which created arguments between myself and people I loved. Which really took a toll on our close relationships. Since I lived with my mum, she got it the worse. Every conversation turned into an argument. At that point, I knew something had to change. I also had a huge fear of speaking about my anxiety, it embarrassed me. I felt stupid. I never told anyone that was what was bothering me. I soon had to make a doctors appointment, I fought through the fear. I admit, I did cry the whole appointment to my doctor. But, in the end, it was worth it. Doctors DO help. I promise you that. I also spent my free time doing things I loved. Which is easy to lose interest in while you feel so low, I understand. For me, I found happiness in Roman Atwood, a YouTuber who strives on positivity and lifting people up. I found the courage to get a job, actually go to the job. Find new friends, leave the house and not cause arguments with those I was around. I got healthier and happier. The biggest piece of advice I can give anyone is do something for YOU and get the help you need. You deserve happiness and health. Find your happiness through something you love, whether it be YouTubers, a TV show, a sport, an art or a music genre. Be strong and fight for your happiness, believe in yourself and you’ll conquer the world.

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